My Heart

 My Heart

God I look at my heart and realize you have a lot of work to do,

Before I will ever come close to being like you.

Yes I was made in your image and I know that in time,

You will transform this carnal and sinful heart of mine.

People may look at me and think I'm a kind generous person.

Fortunately they don't see all of my thoughts and the secret cursing.

I struggle not to judge another after we disagree,

Even when at times, it could be done justifiably.

It's those little things that I need you to help me overcome.

The pride of my heart rears its ugly head before the day is even done.

Someone makes a comment that offends me to the core,

And I just can't seem to stop dwelling on it once more.

I tell myself next time I will have more faith because I know you've got this.

But next time comes and I fail once again and the mark I miss.

God it's those things that I let consume my mind.

I fall on my face because it happens every time.

Then you come and put your hand on my shoulder and smile.

And remind me that it's not me, but you, that will walk the last mile.

It's your faithfulness that gets me through each struggle with sin.

And it's you who is writing your law on my heart once again.

It doesn't mean I won't struggle until the day that I die

Because each day is a reminder of how I need you in my life.

So when I catch myself thinking things I shouldn't think,

I will stop and thank you for allowing me to get to the brink.

Because it's when we fall on our face and only then that we find

You holding us in the deepest hour in our shame every time.

And we realize it's not about us anymore, we gave our life to you

So we can rest in your promises and watch what you're going to do.

God I look at my heart and I realize so much has changed.

I'm not perfect but I see so much that you have arranged.

Each day you are making me more like you.

And I'm thankful for your work in my life and showing me what is true. 

© Sandra C. Johnson 2025

14 We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.  Romans 7:14-20