I Thought it Was My Choice

 I THOUGHT IT WAS MY CHOICE 

I thought it was my choice whether to live or die

I thought I had a say, and I tried to cry.

The pain I felt when that tube entered in.

Was beyond horrific. It brought my life to an end.

I thought it was my choice as that is what they said.

They never told me there was anything to dread.

But I remember that day, and it hurt to the core.

I never had a chance to live and do the things I adore.

Mom, I know you thought you had to do it, I don't blame you.

I am just sad we did not get a chance to do the things that families do.

I am sad that you didn't get to watch me take my first steps.

And you missed the joy of giving birth as I took my first breath.

I know you thought you were doing good by me, by letting me go.

But there are so many things I know you do not know.

The hollowness in your heart when you see the prom queen.

Wondering if maybe in another time would that have been me.

I wonder too, as I look down from heaven on all of your lives.

The things I could have done, the gifts that have been denied.

The joys of experiencing motherhood for myself.

And giving you the grandchild you have never felt.

I thought it was my choice to live or to die.

Sadly, I know now that is a lie.

The choice is given to others without thought or consequence.

From my perspective in heaven it doesn't make sense.

It's not just us tiny people up in heaven, never experiencing the sun.

Or the first snow in winter making snowmen and watching Christmas come.

But it's our mommies below that live in sadness as well.

It's them who wonder, and find it hard not to dwell.

I thought it was my choice, but one had to choose.

I look down from heaven mommy, but I will never accuse.

I will love you for all time, and hope others can see.

That choice they give you does affect me.

So before you decide to throw that small life away.

Ask God for guidance, look to Him and pray.

He has answers to protect you both in the end. .

And He knows what is best, if we will only look unto Him.

© 2024 Sandra. C. Johnson

I have been sharing a lot of information on prolife.  I can't even say why this means to much to me entirely, except that I work with pregnant women and watch them bring life into the world.   With that, however, there is more.   The victims of this prolific act are not just the unborn.   They are the moms who are told this is their only choice.    It is not.   They are scared, they don't know what to do and planned parenthood takes advantage of that.   I can't understand how anyone can be okay with telling a young girl that her child doesn't deserve to live and ostracize those of us who tell her differently.   These moms need guidance, love and support not just a one fix to murder their child growing inside of them.  

Below are some resources if you find yourself in this situation so you can save a life and know there are other choices besides abortion.

https://preborn.com/

https://prolifeacrossamerica.org/

https://www.chooselifeaz.org/

https://pro-lifearizona.com/